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gone
02:58
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i walked across an ancient river
feet deep in your water
there you stand with eyes so piercing
your gaze still haunts my vision even when you're gone
gone
and there i was
a twenty something
stuck with your memories in my head
you took a new form and took my body
is it selfless or selfish to want you gone?
gone
so why did you do this to me?
why did i do this to myself?
im stuck with you
and im through with you
but i love you too
i walked across an ancient river
feet deep in your water
there you stand with eyes so piercing
your gaze still haunts my vision even when you're gone
gone
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2. |
prologue (feat. chion)
00:46
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despite our best efforts, the river of time flows onward. the slight waves overlapping in past, in present, in future; in memory and plans. sometimes we may attempt to wade in this river, and in it we get stuck. and no matter how hard we try, we cannot pull our feet out of the soft yet gripping mud at the bottom, watching the world go on around us, wondering if we’ll ever be able to escape it or just sink in further.
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i’m standing alone
feet in the water
and slowly my entire body will be drowned out
with water in my lungs
screaming "your breathing is done"
you're drowning me out
dead in the water
so when you run away
don't count on me to stay
cause you and your friends having been playing games
and i'm not gonna play that way
god i knew i was right
should’t have trusted a man who doesn’t fight
i know you left me somewhere i shouldn’t be
stuck upstream
you’re drowning me out
i shouldn’t be reflecting in myself
when it’s your shit to deal with
please leave me out of it
i can’t save you when you’re drowning
so when you run away
don't count on me to stay
cause you and your friends having been playing games
and i'm not gonna play that way
i’m standing alone
feet in the water
and slowly my entire body will be drowned out
with water in my lungs
screaming "your breathing is done"
you're drowning me out
dead in the water
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4. |
painless
03:37
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yea i wanna know how i can make you smile
now we're at the break i can see your eyes awake
yea and i wanna know how i can leave your life
wanna make this shit painless
even if for me it ain't painless
you know exactly what it do
you know exactly how to take the move
yea we making truce
riding down the flume
this ain't no wasted dream
i’m exactly where i wanna be
i’m bursting at the seams
but you're where i wanna be
i hate to write sad songs
so i don't wanna sound so appalled
but at the same this is not what i want
but i can't go all kanye and love myself as a god
we've been together for a long time
a long time but we couldn't make it work for a long while
and i was drowning for a long time
a long time but i wasn't saved for a long while long while
yea i wanna know how i can make you smile
now we're at the break i can see your eyes awake
yea and i wanna know how i can leave your life
wanna make this shit painless
even if for me it ain't painless
yea i wanna know
yea i wanna know
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it's been a couple of years i'd say
since the time that I ran away
without you
and i've been living out my own life
got a house and i got a wife
but its not you
let me in
and hear me out
cause i don't know if this is something i can keep in my heart
im just thinking out loud
and i'm just stuck because i wanna keep living now
when i ran away
(i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now)
i'm glad i didn't stay
(i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now)
the games you played had tore me to shreds
and left me drowning in your happiness
and i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now
and you may say that you have changed
and you may say i was to blame
but i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now
every night when i close my eyes
and i dream of paradise i dream of you
of you
but when i dream of hell and pain
i dream of you too
of you too
let me in
and hear me out
cause i don't know if this is something i can keep in my heart
im just thinking out loud
and i'm just stuck because i wanna keep living now
when i ran away
(i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now)
i'm glad i didn't stay
(i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now)
the games you played had tore me to shreds
and left me drowning in your happiness
and i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now
and you may say that you have changed
and you may say i was to blame
but i still can't believe you now
still can't believe you now
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calling
01:32
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it's such a drag
work everyday
makes a man go insane
and we're not doing alright
fight everyday oh what a shame
to be left here
fighting on my own
on weeknights coming home
but all that changed
when at night i got a call
something horrible
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7. |
disease
03:48
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]7 o'clock
Her heart stopped
Made her way up the medical hall
Time wrapped around her finger
And a bomb ticking in her chest
oh and she almost lost too
I haven't talked to you in years
but theres something wrong?
your girl shes got the disease
8 o'clock
her body shocked
electrical currents working down her spine
grabbed the doctor with her fingers
and looked him dead in the eyes
oh and she almost lost too
I haven't talked to you in years
but theres something wrong?
your girl shes got the disease
there she laid across the table
dead look in her eyes
she was trapped stuck comatose
she was trapped inside
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8. |
waking in the light
04:44
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it ended up just like that
one call was made and everything's up in flames
it's a sensory trap
causing the pain and enticing me to your way
enticing me to your way
you're running out of time
every waking day i get you up and i kick you away
our time it fades
into the black
with all of its deepened pain
but I can't keep away long
i poured my heart out to you
you're in deep pain love
alone in a deep sleep now
its been decades long
since the last time i saw you
and i'm waking in your light
i'm just worried of our past life
keep away the darkness
keep away the light
keep away the monsters that kept us up at night
theres a new one coming its called disease
its got us both now
got us both on our knees
but I can't keep away long
i poured my heart out to you
you're in deep pain love
alone in a deep sleep now
its been decades long
since the last time i saw you
and now i'm waking in your light
and now i'm waking in your light
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9. |
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you're creeping in
my dark unknown
my mental psyche
don't wanna know the things you know
but you show
them anyways
and i can't help but feel that things went cold
but not for the reasons i thought
our love froze
when you turn to me
when you repeat
the things i know and what i don't know
now up until this time
i didn't know the words
up until this time
we're speaking through the night
out of all the things i could say
theres two words i can’t get out of my brain
please just let me say them
oh thank you
for setting me free
from overthinking endlessly
cause i thought our love froze
when you turn to me
when you repeat
the things i know and what i don't know
now up until this time
i didn't know the words
up until this time
we're speaking through the night
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10. |
the end of us
06:23
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walk across
the empty
the deadened
the bottom of the pit that i was just starting to leave
i started to believe
that the old us could be gone
that maybe we could keep going on
why did i run away?
when i should’ve stayed
now here we are playing games
with tales of happiness and heartbreak
i’ve dealt the cards and you fade away
the last beat of your heart almost seems fake
and i want things to change
but i know that your end is the end of us
signs they flicker
your ghost passing by
shine a light into those cold dead eyes
i’ve shined a light on my faults
they’re what made our end feel painless
but i made you feel the water that was flowing over me
why did i run away?
when i should’ve stayed
now here we are playing games
with tales of happiness and heartbreak
i’ve dealt the cards and you fade away
the last beat of your heart almost seems fake
and i want things to change
but i know that your end is the end of us
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11. |
feel myself
03:12
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im laying in my skin
what they see on the outside is not within
im being worn down to the flesh and bone
they're peeling back the layers
of this shell of myself i've been trapped in
im hanging off the edge
the ground cutting into my fingers and i cant see the end
oh what a terrible way to live
but sometimes the end shows itself and all i see is death
and i
i know i wanna be with you until the end
cause you're the only one who makes me feel like myself again
these days
i'm floating around with nothing but my own name
oh its a shame
finding yourself trapped in your own grave
and i
i know i wanna be with you until the end
and i
im dying to get to see you again
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12. |
the end
06:10
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i can remember the look in your eyes
gazing inside as you take your last goodbye
step inside my soul
bring back the woman i know
is this death? or is this life?
there is no compromise
take my life and take me as i am
cause i don't know what lies ahead
forever living or forever dead
is that where i'll find you?
find you again
i can remember the last time we danced
even the stars could smile seeing our last touching hands
step inside my soul
bring back the woman i know
is this death? or is this life?
there is no compromise
take my life and take me as i am
cause i don't know what lies ahead
forever living or forever dead
is that where i'll find you?
find you again
i’m standing alone
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13. |
drown (reprise)
02:19
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I'm laying alone
head under the water
and slowly my entire body will be drowned out
water filling my lungs
my breathing is done
im drowning out
im drowning out
im drowning out
im dead in the water
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14. |
epilogue (feat. chion)
01:08
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often we see ourselves through the eyes of others. so when the eyes once relied on for existence, ones that pierce the exterior and illuminate the soul, close due to unpreventable circumstances, in what state does the one they look upon exist? what can the being truly know of itself, stuck in the water of the world around it? i believe that it is in the nature of a body to be suspended in the stillest, most endless sort of motion. a dance for one, performed to the muted sound of it’s own heartbeat, an open hand reaching out to what lies beyond the water, toward the fiery shining light.
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15. |
one more dance
04:09
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when i look into your eyes
i see those firey shining lights
your hands wrapped around my waist
my home in your warm embrace
please don't let go
please don't let go
maneuvering under the twilight
records spin in the moonlight
one more dance before this all ends
one more dance before we're just friends
please don't let go
please don't let go
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high up in our tree
far away from where people may be
but maybe they'll be watching us
from the clouds at heavens gate
i do not know
what the purpose of our lives are but a show
for people like we
high up in a tree
to watch us grow
but i will not know
what sort of life we could lead
and i will never know
what kind of people we could be
but i will be here right by your side
feet deep in the water thats our love
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